I wonder to the wonder of your skin
sun touched and pink
beneath my fingertips
Roused by a memory of memories
reaching heights of loves sweet
play on soul
I have never posted my music here, which is one of my biggest writing outlets.
I am posting this one as this is still where I am at.
In with knowing and out with pain.
Tonight I feel
full of fear
fear of the what if’s
the how comes.
I have to take my mind
to free myself
by accepting that tonight
I feel lonely.
I cuddle lonely
not to change
but to simply
The mind goes…
It reminds me of the screen
I take to falling apart quite gracefully if you would just get the fuck out of my way
who said I had to be whole for you
who said I needed to be measurements not given by
well fuck me and then take my thighs wet
to memories and I will touch upon it now and then
but most times i will regret
I will regret
I will regret
not leaving sooner…
it wanders the streets of dynamite
Setting off fire works of construction
up to the conscious that consumes
phone screens of instant memorabilia.
faster than the speed of light sound barriers are turtled in history
faster than we can keep up with
the blur of wasted Saturday afternoons on the porch creates
a canvas of smeared green and sunset
to feel must be but a second or
self destruction commences in the form of self medication.
In the form of self medication, I write.
I can write when happy too you know
I can feel the words drip from my lips to the
finger tips of my enthusiasm
It comes in waves like all
other things and I hold on tight
to the me I see in lost future.
Her head held high through all she was
that I am now.
She knows the value of this lesson already
She waits for me to get it
she waits for me
to accept happy and I tell her…
I can be happy too you know
Let it in me, be me, around me, I can
write it in the sand from the thoughts that drip from my lips to the
finger tips of my enthusiasm.
ooo your so much cooler than me
older than dirt and schooled more than me
oh baby you sure do look hotter than me
can hold up that top a lot higher than me
mmmm honey you sure are taller than me
take in your doubt and hold on longer than me
oh dear you sure are smoother than me
only speak how the nights dark is brighter than me
but ooooo love you sure ain’t wiser than me
for all the dark hot grit
ain’tgonna get you shit
for you’ll still end up 6 feet in the dirt
lookin ugly as sin
won’t matter what you win
cuz you gonna die like alls worth
Who will listen
back and forth
and I am again tired
who would you take me as
who do you love me as
I lust no one but a place
a wonderment of am I good enough and will you please
fuck me I need the self worth.
what else is new to the brain drained by the neon taint
of sidewalks glazed in pink signs of wet pussy and tits that meet your eyelids
take me to the heaven that says I am the man inside I feel they are.