You will not come to my dreams and torment me,make me hate me,take me sexually.
Give me remorse in the color of lusting after you, while the groan you carry on your lips is as deep as a valley.
Non-penetrable by genuine caring.
You will not come to my dreams in the form of the ultimate love, the one I cannot win.
Delving into me.
Then leaving me.
Not leaving me in the sheets for that would be welcomed but leaving me in understanding .
Understanding the lust.
Understanding the artist.
Understanding the creative process and the yearning for more.
You will not come to me in my fucking dreams and then wake me to the idea of not good enough.
Your ass crippled from the life you chose to take place of your genuine questioning.
Glittered in the saliva of your childrens conquests while the chair you sit in folds in from the weight.
The blue that sparkles in the eyes of you will not take the bad taste you have left in my mouth out.
You serve no purpose but to watch the show go on and detest the actors risking their sanity to bring you reality.
Normal you will stay.
of all you didn’t try in order to cleanly survive.