I look at him
eyes are heavy
his eyes are light
I remember fixing him and the way he alcoholically
pissed on the bed I also remember
how hard he held me pressed in groaning the floor I melted
I remember how colors never seemed the same I thank him
for his deep blue
a bit spicy beyond the concerns of others
but my tingles thank you
My memories that quicken the heart
thank you
thank you
disaster for coming and staying not long